Patience and Self-Discipline

Posted on October 26, 2012 by Gale

I’m sitting here this evening trying to distract my thoughts away from a discussion that I hope took place today at

Toronto General Hospital (TGH).

Actually it should have taken place last week but..hmm..I’m jumping ahead of myself.  Allow me to explain.

In September we (my hubby and I) spent a week going back and forth to TGH so I could have a large assortment of diagnostic tests and blood work done. In addition we had to meet the transplant coordinator, anaesthetist, social worker, physiotherapist and dietician as well.  It was a busy and hectic week but a necessary evil because these are the tests that will determine if I qualify to have a double lung transplant and be put on the transplant list.  And so we waited.  The expression should not be the agony of defeat..nope..it should be the agony of waiting.  But nevermind because the wait is necessary and a good lesson in patience and self-discipline.  Pay attention to those italicized words.  You may see them again!

I was told that I would be discussed at the weekly meeting last Thursday and the coordinator would notify me by Monday or Tuesday of this week.  When I still had not heard by late afternoon on Tuesday I phoned only to be told that because they had two more urgent cases to discuss, I had to be bumped.  I understood why they did what they did but still, the waiting has been agony but  necessary and a good lesson in patience and self-discipline.  See?  I warned you.

She said my case will be discussed this Thursday Octber 25th so I said ok and when will I hear the decision?  She promised to phone me by noon tomorrow, October 26.  Again, the waiting is agony but necessary and a good lesson in patience and self-discipline.  Are those words starting to sound familiar yet?

Once I get listed, IF I get listed, it should be easier because then all I will have to do is …hmm..oh yeah..wait, this time for lungs to become available.  Not easier after all I suppose but (are you ready for it? let’s all say it together) the wait is  necessary and a good lesson in patience and self-discipline.

Wow am I going to be a strong, patient, disciplined person when this is done.  Why I’ll practically have discipline coming out the wazoo.    Joking about it helps me cope but the fact is, this is one very big waiting game and I’m just going to have to learn to deal with it.

So I’ll post on here tomorrow as soon as I find out but until then you’ll just have to wait and  … well you know the drill. *grin*